I knew silence have found me, the moment I look at my surroundings without the presence of the angel who walked with me at the park, the minute I knew she's heading back home. I felt a wave of sadness washed over me. For that instant I panicked. It only had been a couple of days when she left, yet it feels like years since we have seen each other. The cold of silence is killing me. I can't even hear the loudness of the outside world. All I can hear is my mind screaming while wondering when will I see her lovely smile again? When will I gaze at her china eyes again? When will I feel the soft touch of her hand towards mine again?
I wanted to run? I wanted to follow her? but where? How? There are some places where I can't go? one of that places is her home. Maybe for now I can't, wishful thinking that someday I will. I need an escape route to minimize this feeling of missing her. Escape! Hide! Watch more videos, play more interactive games, do some sketching, go out! But none of these escape routes worked for me anymore. Once upon a time, they may have, but not anymore. Nothing but total honesty was worth anything anymore.
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And so there I was, sitting on my brother's car driving, staring at the long road ahead, while the sun's going to bed slowly. I accepted that I do miss her. Why? I guess because I was taking in all the beauty of my surroundings alone. I couldn't help thinking how much better it would be if she were here, with me, sitting at the passenger seat. And I guess it was because I wanted to share the ideas, thoughts, and feelings which came to me so we could talk, and debate about them once again. Denial? What else would be the reason why I miss this angel? Okay? okay? I'm falling in love with her. Happy now?!
I can't stop thinking about her, the image of her face, in many different angles, inside my head. What a beautiful thought!! I wanted to thank her for bringing back the smile on me, for reminding me that I am alive. I thought this world is full of hate and misery. I was wrong, I was so glad to spend that unforgettable, long, relaxing night with her. God, how I wish we could do that walk again even for a while. I know our paths will cross again even I'm not that sure when, or when, or how, but I know I will see her again. Angel, please hurry back. I'll wait for you no matter what.
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